Sunday, December 12, 2010

My grandpa

Grandma got a call from one of the nurses in the CCU yesterday that Grandpa's breathing was shallow and for all family to come down because it was thought he would pass.  Sean, Ryan, Dad, Grandma, Steve, Melinda, Emily, Dave, Michelle, and I gather around his bedside.  Daniel drove in from Gainesville and Amy and Butch from Orlando.  He is not doing well at all.  He is on 100% nonrebreather mask and his O2 sats are still not great.  They were dipping into the 80s before giving him O2.  His hemoglobin is 7, which means he has either internal bleeding or cancer, but the doctors are not going to investigate it at this point.  He has not opened his eyes in days and didn't at all yesterday while we were there.  I think we got there around 4 and stayed until 7.  He has gained 3 pounds since being in the CCU because the nourishment he is receiving via IV and NG tube, he is not digesting or metabolizing.  So the decision was made to withhold food from him now since it is actually doing more harm than good.  It is causing all the fluid in his lungs, which in turn is the reason why he struggles to breathe with each breath.  His heart is very weak.  He also has pneumonia again.  They are giving him antibiotics for that just so my Uncle Paul can see him again before he passes.  We were also going to give him another blood transfusion, but it would just send him into CHF now because of all the extra fluid.  My uncle is flying in from MS tonight.  We may try to move him to Hospice on comfort measures today.  It's heartbreaking to see him this way.  He does not look like my grandpa anymore.  I don't  like seeing him in pain, or my family in pain.  However, I do have to say that we love each other so much and so it is so nice to know that we have each other during this extremely difficult time.  My Grandma is really struggling.  I just pray that she leans on Him and draws strength, comfort and peace from our Savior.  I miss him already and he's not even gone. 

3 comments:

Bobbi Stephens said...

Hettie -

I am praying for your family. We lost Joe's mother during level one and it was one of the hardest but joyous times. I know that may sound weird but through all the pain we really got to see just how much she was loved. Try to remember the good and focus on that through the tears. The healing comes in God's time when you will be able to smile instead of cry. Again - I will be praying for you and your faily at this time.

Love - Bobbi

~ Noelle said...

I am so sorry for you and your family..
My heart is breaking...
You know I am here if you need anything...
Love you

Hettie Brewner said...

Thank you both. Love you!