Sunday, December 28, 2014

This Year

I've been reflecting on 2014 a lot, especially as it is coming to an end.  I honestly can't recall too many tougher years than this one.  2005-2006 definitely comes to mind, as that was the first year Sean and I were married and he also deployed for 7 months, including a two month stint in Iraq.  That was a really tough year.  I was left in the strange land of California (I'm a Southern gal) and couldn't have made it without the help of my Marine wife friends!  

It's hard to not start crying just thinking about this year.  Yes, there have been good times.  The top of my list of great blessings is the birth of our first daughter, Hailey Elizabeth, on February 25th.  We had a healthy pregnancy and a healthy labor and delivery and a healthy little baby girl.  We were overjoyed and still are.  She is so sweet and we just love her so.  

We also have each other.  I thank God for allowing me to spend all these special days with my husband and our four small children.  I love them.  I cherish them.  I probably squeeze them a little tighter each day.  Mostly because of the things we have weathered through this year. We have food, shelter, clothing, and our health.  We truly are blessed.  We have a wonderful family, sweet friends, our church, and a beautiful area of the country to enjoy day in and day out.  We have the freedom that the US of A provides; very few countries have what America has.  

That being said, I know great trials and great hardships this year.  In January, we attended Sean's grandma's funeral.  Unfortunately, I didn't get to know her very well and probably learned the most at her memorial service.  I wished I would have gotten to know her better.  I know she was a special woman.  


A "For Sale" sign was stuck into our front yard in January, as well.  The owners of this house wanted to sell it, however, they were going to allow us to finish out our lease (end of June).  After that, they agreed upon a month to month lease while they searched for a buyer.  In all honesty, it was a little stressful and almost always a little of an inconvenience to show the house to potential buyers.  I know I didn't have the best attitude about it.  But even with my ungratefulness, the Lord blessed us with the owners deciding to take down the "For Sale" sign for now and letting us extend our lease until December 2015.  This was an answer to a specific prayer!  I had asked God to let us stay here until Sean graduated and he graduates December 2015!  Let me say, we only wanted to be here if the Lord wanted us to be here and we did not want the owners to struggle with not being able to sell the house. 

In May, my family suffered the loss of my uncle.  It was a complete surprise and a reminder that everyday with my loved ones is special and a gift from God because we do not know how long our lives are on this earth.  

About a month later, my grandma passed and words cannot even describe how much I miss her.  It is still new.  It is still heartbreaking.  It is an open wound that has not yet healed.  My father and my uncles lost their brother and their mother in the same month.  I lost my uncle and my grandma.  My last surviving grandparent.  It is one of those times in life when you just feel like things aren't fair.  I didn't understand and I asked God why.  Why did He allow this to happen?  I thought we had many more years with my grandma.  I miss her.  And usually it comes out of nowhere.  Some random memory or some thing about her will pop into my head, usually followed by a smile and a good cry.  I usually cry in the car all alone driving to and from work.  I think of her and just miss her.  I can't even begin to understand how my Dad and my uncles feel.  Broken, I know.  She was truly the center of our family.  She was our everything.  It's just not the same without her.  And missing her makes me miss granddad.  It's tough.  

We also had a season of sickness.  It was for most of the summer.  We rarely made it to church and we rarely got out to do anything.  The kids had multiple ear infections (all four of them) and I had a sinus infection.  It sounds wimpy, but they hurt!  And it seemed to last forever.  This season of sickness ended with surgeries.  Andrew was first.  Just a little over a month shy of his 2nd birthday, our little guy had to get tubes put in his ears.  He had suffered through 8 ear infections in one year and had hearing loss and not much in the way of speech.  I was so nervous.  Overly nervous.  It was scary.  But it ended great!  The surgery went well and he hears now and he talks now!  It's such a blessing and a joy to see him learning and growing and watching his little personality develop.  

But surgeries weren't over.  Shortly after Andrew's surgery, I happened to notice that our three-year-old Hunter had one enlarged tonsil.  I thought nothing of it at first, but a couple of weeks later, it hadn't changed at all.  So off to the doctor we went.  Again.  This time the surgery really scared me.  All of a sudden Andrew's surgery seemed so easy.  Our little Hunter had to get his tonsils taken out and he had to get tubes placed in his ears.  And since only one tonsil was enlarged, they would need to send it off to make sure it wasn't something else.  The "C" word frightens me.  And so I was a mess.  Praise the Lord, Hunter's surgery was also a success and he is doing very well.  He had about a week's recovery camped out in our room and he got to eat lots of ice cream.  And what's beautiful is all he really remembers is the yummy treats he got to eat.  And his tonsil test results came back just fine.  

Now, at this point we thought maybe we could get back on that mountaintop and out of the valley we'd been in, but God had other plans.  

In October, we had to put our beloved dog, Allie, to sleep.  She was our first baby!  We got her just a week or so after we married and had her for 10 years.  Our house is just not quite the same without her.  We are still grieving over her loss, as well.  She pretty suddenly got really sick and there probably wasn't much we could do to help her.  We did gain three cats over the summer and got to enjoy having kittens around (two of which we kept, along with mama Lily cat), but it's still just not the same without Allie girl.  

We also found out on October 25th that we were expecting baby #5!  We were elated.  Two weeks later, however, at the first ultrasound we were faced with the fact that all I had was an empty sac.  I was 6 weeks along at this point and so we had to wait two more weeks to know for sure if there was a baby or not.  I prayed, and prayed, and prayed.  I felt so much hope and a lot of faith, but we were deeply disappointed to find out it was still just an empty sac.  I guess I still didn't like that answer and felt like one more ultrasound at 10 weeks would give me the concrete answer I needed.  Still an empty sac.  I had a blighted ovum, where a fertilized egg implanted in my uterus, but never developed after that.  It was rough.  We were very saddened and are still mourning the loss of this precious little baby.  It was also rough because I still felt pregnant.  I was more nauseous and tired and sick than any of my other pregnancies.  We tried twice to schedule a D&C, but both times God closed the door.  We prayed and prayed and just felt like God wanted us to miscarry naturally.  So, I carried till 12 weeks along before I started to miscarry.  All was going well until December 19th when I started hemorrhaging at work and drove myself to the ER gushing blood.  This is still so new and I just posted about this whole experience so I won't go into much detail - http://alittlepeaceinourheaven.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-ending.html.  In the end, I received 4 pints of blood and was rushed to the OR to get a D&C.  I spent the night in the hospital and was released the next morning.  All of Christmas week, I have been recovering.  I have mostly gained my strength back and I feel much better.  I think right now it is still the emotional aspect that I haven't quite recovered from.  It was traumatic and scary and I know I was probably very close to losing my life.  


The same day I rushed myself to the hospital, our Expedition decided to start giving us problems.  So for now it is parked and undriveable until mid January when we will have the money to fix it.  This means we just have the Honda, which is fine, but we don't all fit in the Honda.  That is in a way a blessing to have a dilemma of not being able to fit all of my precious family in one car.  It is also a burden.  At least I thought.  That means no church.  No all of us going to swim lessons.  No all of us going anywhere together.  Why did God want to split us up and more often than not just keep us homebound?  But as He always does, He knows best.  And we are taking this opportunity to home church and hopefully teach our children the correct way to behave in church. 


Church has been tough for me this year.  I've built up envy, jealousy, and bitterness towards others and I've had unmet unrealistic expectations about our church in general and about its members.  I've wanted to leave.  I've had anxiety going.  I've left discouraged and despaired.  I've left angry, frustrated, and with no patience because of our children acting up during service.  I need to get my heart right.  And you know of course now that we can't go, I miss going! 

Through all these trials and tough times, God has taken care of us.  Andrew and Hunter are doing great.  I am also doing well.  God saved me and protected me from what could have been a very different Christmas for my family.  

I have also learned a lot this year.  I have grown closer to God.  I just want to know what He wants me to glean from all of this.  That's my main focus.  I think I am seeing what He is trying to show me, but I'm not positive.  I just don't want to miss anything.  I have been very mad at God, too. I have screamed and yelled and cried out to Him.  I have felt like walking away from my faith.  I have tried to convince myself that I am better off without Him.  But He has my heart and so I can't walk away from Him and I certainly know that life without Him is nothing.  It is hopeless.  I don't understand everything from this year.  Probably I'm not supposed to.  

I would love to say that I hope, hope, hope that God gives us an abundance of mountaintop living in 2015, but that may just not be the plan.  Just because 2014 was extremely difficult doesn't mean I've earned my way into an easy year filled with blessings.  I do know I want God's best.  So for 2015 I want my life to simply be lived for God.  

I hope that all of you have a God filled 2015.  Love you.  

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas 2014

Christmas Eve, we surprised the children with a trip to the Smokies stadium in Kodak to see the Shamrock Christmas lights show.  They loved it!  Some of them even got to ride a camel, too!  Then, we drove thru the lights at Chilhowee Park in Knoxville.

Today, we have read the birth of Christ, opened gifts, played, played, and played some more, and have not gotten out of our jammies.  My sweetheart is busy making us Christmas dinner since I am still having to rest.  I am looking forward to herb crusted roast beef, shaker bread, buttermilk mashed potatoes, asparagus, and pecan cream cheese pie.  Yum!

I hope everyone is having a blessed Christmas and that you are enjoying time with your family.  It is fun to give gifts and spend time together and eat a delicious Christmas dinner.  However, I feel such a burden on my heart, especially today, of the need to give all of my gifts, all that I have, everything to Jesus.  He needs all of me.  He needs all of you.  And I know we need Him.

Merry Christmas!



Picture taken by Ryan

Bug's first Christmas and she's 10 months old today!





Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Google Year In Photos

https://plus.google.com/photos/105943521831392929095/yearinphotos2014?authkey=CLaDo6q4or6oYw

Christmas in the Cave



Although I am mostly resting and relaxing and recovering at home, we did take the children and Pappy to Christmas in the Cave at Cherokee Caverns on Sunday.  They only open up the cave for Halloween and Christmas.  It was actually the perfect thing to do because the walk was pretty short, the cave was all decorated, and we all enjoyed our time.  They also had a fire going and hot chocolate and shopping and treats.  Ryan is already asking to go back next year.  http://www.cherokeecaverns.com

Sunday, December 21, 2014

The Ending

My experience of having a blighted ovum has ended.  But it ended in a way I never imagined.

On Thursday I started to miscarry and all was going well.  It was normal and I felt fine.

Friday morning I woke super early to work my 7 a to 7 p shift.  When I got to work I did share that I was miscarrying and that I would take it easy, which all my coworkers and boss kindly helped me to do.  Around 3 pm I started having contractions, but I also remembered that, that was normal per some of my friends that have been through similar experiences.

The contractions were a little painful and the bleeding picked up a bit, but I still thought everything was fine.  Then around 5 p.m., I had one really strong contraction and then I felt a gush of blood.  I quickly went to the bathroom and that's when things started to go wrong.....quickly.

I filled the toilet about three times with blood and at this point I realized I needed to leave work.....and fast.  I grabbed my stuff, muttered that I had to go, and left.

Once to my car, I called Sean and told him what happened and said I was coming home.  We hung up and I started to head home.  I was a little panicky because I felt like maybe something was wrong.  I prayed to God and basically said, "If I don't gush again, I will drive home, but if I do gush again I will drive to the hospital".  UT Medical Center is on my way home.  Well, no sooner did I say that, I felt three huge gushes right in a row.  It was so scary.  There was so much blood that it was coming through my skirt and pooling on my lap.  And it didn't stop.  I just kept gushing blood.

I called Sean back panicking and told him I was driving myself to the ER.  He kept me on the phone to try to keep me from passing out.  I was driving 80 in a 50.  I ran red lights.  I was so scared.

I pulled up to the ER doors and got out, leaving my car, my purse, everything.  I asked someone to help me and right away someone came over to me.  I was pouring blood everywhere.

They quickly got me to an exam room in the ER and started two IVs and took blood from me.  They asked me what was going on and so I told them I had a blighted ovum and I was about 12 weeks along and I was miscarrying.  They asked me questions to figure out who I was and my medical history because obviously I didn't do the regular check in thing.

The ER doctor came in and did a pelvic exam and packed me to see if he could get the bleeding to stop.  That didn't work.  The blood just kept coming through all the packing.  Then the OB doctor came in, removed all that packing, did another pelvic exam, and tried to get the remainder of the contents out in hopes that the bleeding would stop.  It didn't.  So he packed me again, but it just kept seeping through.

Then they started a blood transfusion and I received 3 pints of blood.  I was so scared and kept telling them they had to get all this bleeding to stop.  My vital signs were going down hill and my color didn't look good.  I kept feeling like I was going to pass out.

Then they rushed me to the OR.  I could feel rivers of blood coming through all the packing and it was pooling in between my legs.

Once in the OR, they put me to sleep, intubated me, and performed a D&C.  I had asked the OB beforehand to protect my "lady parts" because we wanted to have more kids and he promised he would, unless he couldn't get the bleeding to stop, in which case, they would have to do a hysterectomy.  They did not end up having to do that.  I received another pint of blood in the OR, which made a total of 4 pints.

Once in recovery, Sean was able to come in and visit after I woke up.  I was so happy to see him since up until this point I had to go all of it alone.  The surgery went well and I was stable.  I stayed in recovery until about 1130 pm and then they moved us to a room.

We were discharged around 11 am Saturday morning with instructions to basically take it easy.  The OB commented that with the amount of blood I lost, if I hadn't been healthy to begin with, things could've turned out differently.  The final diagnosis was incomplete miscarriage with a vaginal hemorrhage.  My body was unable to expel all of the contents of the uterus so the uterus couldn't clamp down, which caused me to start hemorrhaging.

I have been doing pretty well, all things considered.  I am definitely doing better than Friday and I am very grateful for that. I am sore from head to toe, basically camped out on the couch or in my bed, and have been taking some hydrocodone.

I don't know why this all happened, but I do know that God took care of me.  He got me to the hospital safely, took me to one of the best hospitals in our area, and gave me amazing doctors and nurses who remained calm and steady while I panicked.

I am cherishing life a little more.  I am also scared.  It was traumatic and I am still trying to grasp what happened.  It seems a little surreal.  I am just grateful to be at home with my family.  My dad also came in yesterday to stay with us for a week.

We are praying for a good recovery and we are praising God for taking care of me.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Just a Little Update


I had every good intention of gathering the children around our tree to snap a couple of photos to add to the blog and to my photo albums.  But I just haven't done it.  I finally decided today to just take a picture with my cell phone, but when I got there I found a sleeping Hunter so the picture quality got even poorer......couldn't open the blinds and help out the lighting of the room plus I had to be sneaky.  So here it is.  The tree.  Without 4 kiddos sitting around it.  From my cell phone.  In terrible lighting.  And here is Hunter.  Yes, he is sleeping with mittens on.  :)  

Things here have been, well, going.  

Sean finished his semester on Thursday so we get him all to ourselves for about a whole month and that makes me thrilled.  

Ryan has completed 90 days of kindergarten here at home!

Hunter and Andrew are now the two who fight constantly (it used to be Ryan and Hunter).  They are both healthy and good, though.  Andrew is adding so many more words to his vocabulary these days!

We've also got all 3 boys in swim lessons now, which has been such a joy to watch.  They love the water.  Well, Hunter, probably likes the water.  ;)

Hailey is working on 4 teeth total and pulling to a standing and we are excited to share her first Christmas with her.  

The Lily cat was spayed on Friday and she is now recovering here at home and doing well.  She is in our room for a week while she heals and then it will be back to the great outdoors for her. 

That leaves me.  I've had good days and bad.  I went back to the OB last Wednesday because I still have the blighted ovum and haven't miscarried.  Ultrasound showed bleeding around the empty sac.  Sean and I talked again about me having the D&C and we went ahead and called to make an appointment, but by the time I talked to the office, I started spotting.  I thought this meant it was the beginnings of a miscarriage, but then nothing else happened.  The surgical coordinator then calls the next day and tells me she is concerned because this has been going on for so long and she fears infection and sepsis and uterine scarring and no chance to bear any more children.  Well, that phone call left me pretty upset.  

I feel like every time we try to schedule the D&C, God closes the door.  It has been frustrating.  I have just wanted for this to all be over.  To move on.  Close this chapter.  But as our God always does, He has continued to bring me comfort when I am sad or angry or confused.  He has promised to be here with us and He has been.  We have been seeking him and He has been guiding us.  It may not seem like the right thing to us in our minds, but God does know best.  

I have been learning a lot through this trial.  And for that I am grateful and excited to see where He is taking us and how He is changing us and growing us.  

So we continue to wait.  And on a positive note, I feel much, much better.  The pregnancy symptoms (nausea and fatigue) have pretty much gone away since Thursday.  I am very thankful for that. 

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Our Family Thanksgiving 2014

Well, first a couple of pictures of the bug-a-loo






Thanksgiving Day evening.  Wearing Mr. Potato Head glasses.  :)




Recipe at the bottom

And this one, too.  This one especially caught my eye because they're called spoon bread muffins.  My Weesie used to make spoon bread and it was one of my favorites.  These were really tasty.  Not exactly the same, but similar.

Meal time!

Fancy plates huh!!!  :0)  We do have nice china, but it just seemed like too much work after a long day of cooking.  



Hailey had puffs.  I think Daddy may have fed her spoon bread muffins, too.

Both recipes from Southern Living Nov 2014 Issue

Spoon Bread Corn Muffins 

Ingredients



1 1/2 cups finely ground white cornmeal 
1 teaspoon baking soda 
1 teaspoon kosher salt 
large eggs, lightly beaten $
2 1/4 cups buttermilk 
1/4 cup freshly grated sharp Cheddar cheese $
1 tablespoon chopped fresh chives 
Unsalted butter 

Preparation

1. Preheat oven to 425°. Combine first 3 ingredients in a large bowl. Whisk eggs and buttermilk into cornmeal mixture, stirring vigorously until smooth. Stir in cheese and chives. Pour batter into a greased (with unsalted butter) 12-cup muffin tin.
2. Bake at 425° for 13 minutes or until lightly browned. Cool in pan on a wire rack 5 minutes. Remove from pan to rack; cool 5 minutes.



Cheese Cracker Topped Squash Casserole 

Ingredients

3 pounds yellow squash, chopped 
2 pounds zucchini, chopped 
medium onion, chopped $
2 tablespoons kosher salt 
1/2 cup sour cream $
1/2 cup mayonnaise $
large egg $
(8-oz.) block extra-sharp Cheddar cheese, grated 
1/2 teaspoon ground black pepper 
2 cups fish-shaped Cheddar cheese crackers 
2 tablespoons butter, melted $

Preparation

1. Preheat oven to 350°. Place first 3 ingredients in a Dutch oven; add hot water 2 inches above squash-and-onion mixture. Add salt to Dutch oven, and stir to dissolve. Bring mixture to a boil over medium-high heat. Boil 10 minutes or until squash is very tender when pierced with a fork. Drain vegetable mixture well; let stand at room temperature 15 minutes to cool slightly.
2. Stir together sour cream and mayonnaise in a large bowl. Lightly beat egg, and stir into mayonnaise mixture. Gently stir in cheese, pepper, and cooked squash mixture; spoon mixture into a greased (with butter) 13- x 9-inch baking dish.
3. Bake at 350° for 40 minutes or until bubbly. Combine cheese crackers and melted butter, and toss to coat. Arrange over casserole. Bake 10 more minutes. Remove from oven, and let stand 5 minutes before serving.

Note:

Gerri Ellis, Hazelhurst, MS
NOVEMBER 2014

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Advent Activities for the Kiddos

http://www.thrivingfamily.com/advent


I just printed out the calendar, all the daily activities, the characters, and the daily Bible studies.  We've never done this before, but it looks like fun times to spend as a family, so I thought I'd pass it along.  Happy Thanksgiving!

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

No Baby

The follow-up ultrasound did not go as we had hoped and prayed for.  Still no baby; just debris.  Measuring at 8 weeks.  Doctor said miscarriage.  I felt so silly for thinking it was going to go differently.  I really believed we were going to see a baby and hear a heartbeat. 


He gave us the option of a D&C or doing it naturally.  He scared me into doing a D&C because he said if it happened on its own, I would probably end up in the ER and having to do a D&C any way.  We also rushed into thinking this was the better choice because honestly I just want all of this to be over with.  I don't want to feel pregnant anymore - nauseous and tired.  I just want to move on.  I wanted to do what we think is more convenient for us and on our own schedule. 


I was so angry at God yesterday.  Wallowing in my own sorrows and disappointments.  I went home and went to bed with a horrible headache, a tummy ache, and a bad attitude.


However, I had managed to ask God to give us a clear sign on whether we should go ahead with the surgery.  Other than that, I honestly didn't want to talk to Him.  So childish. 


This morning, we got our answer.  Because I had a few sips of liquids after midnight, they wanted us to come in at 11, but then wait in the OR waiting room till at least 6 p.m. for the surgery.  That did not sound like a good idea to Sean and I.  I cried and cried, but realized God had closed the D&C door. 


So we wait.  Sitting here, teary eyed, I realize God is love and He does want what's best for all of us.  I know this is His best plan and if He had wanted to change the situation to what we wanted, He could have. 


I'm sad still.  But not angry.  I do feel comforted.  I am reminded to be still and know that He is God.  Through this year of hardships, he must want me to learn something or lots of somethings.  Maybe I'm not quite there yet.  I don't know.  Maybe never to know. 


Now to pray for a safe passing of what should have been our new baby.......in God's timing.  I would like to tell Him to hurry up and make it happen, but I am going to be patient. 


I'm gonna try to remember that tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I certainly have a lot to be thankful for. 


The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, blessed be the name of the Lord.

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Rental Home

As some of you already know, our house has been up for sale since January.  Our lease ran out in June and since then, the owners have agreed to do a month by month while they wait for a buyer.  I'm not gonna lie.  It's been a little stressful - having to show the house and not knowing when we will need to be looking for a new place to live and only having 30 days to do so if the house sold. 


Well, I have been praying for close to a year now specifically that God would allow us to live here until Sean graduates.  God answered that prayer yesterday!  The owners are taking it off the market and won't put it back on until August.  And we get to sign a year lease until December 2015, which is when Sean graduates!!!!!  What a testimony to God's goodness.  We are certainly excited and we also feel like a burden has been lifted!  Now, we can plan and move next December!


"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever" (Psalm 107:1). - See more at: http://www.allaboutgod.com/gods-goodness-faq.htm#sthash.rGHtccB0.dpuf

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Poison Ivy

This was like day two of Ryan's bout of poison ivy

Break for a cute kitten picture!

This is day 7

And this is yesterday (day 8).  OK time to visit his pediatrician.  Benadryl is not helping. He screams when I try to put anything on it.  He looks pretty pitiful.  He was put on steroids and is looking much better.  I don't have a picture of that though and he is in bed.  He's been a trooper, though.  Poor lil man!

Yay and Hi

Hailey has lots of news firsts.  She waves.  She claps.  She army crawls.  She can sit up from lying down.  She pulls up to a standing.  She is growing fast!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Maybe Baby

On October 25th, we found out we were expecting baby #5!  Today was my first appointment.  On ultrasound, there was an empty gestational sac.  I am measuring about a week earlier than my LMP.  So, either it's too early and next ultrasound on 11/25 will show a precious new life or it will still be an empty sac.  We definitely would have preferred a better appointment with a baby and a heartbeat, but we are thanking God any ways.  Right?  We have to.  In good and bad.  God is always good.  Sean and I are going to rely on God and his goodness and mercy and grace and have faith and hope that our next appointment will show that new little one.  In the meantime, prayers are asked for.  I'm definitely feeling nauseous and tired aka pregnant. 


And before I go, we do have a testimony.  Close to the same thing happened with Hunter.  I started bleeding, went to the ER, had a subchorionic hematoma, did ultrasound, and empty sac.  Did another ultrasound at OB a few days later and still nothing.  Dr. says my body thinks I am pregnant, but not really.  Sent home to wait another week for another ultrasound and this time.....A BABY!  And this baby who is now 3years old is sitting on my lap as I type this.  So we have one miracle already.  Well, if anyone knows my pregnancy with Ryan, you would also know that was a miracle. 


So we wait.  Hopefully for a new little Thanksgiving blessing. 

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Vet Day 2014

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Thank you to all of our veterans!  We plan to get free Starbucks, a free meal at Chili's and a free car wash.  All of this is nice, but hopefully we can remember the real reason for the day.......all the men and women who have been willing or who have sacrificed their lives for the sake of our freedom. 

Friday, October 31, 2014

Lil of This-n-That

We don't celebrate Halloween and we don't always carve a pumpkin, but we had one from going to the pumpkin patch so we decided to carve it last night.  I had been thinking today about how maybe trick-or-treating is more harmless than not, but God helped me to change my mind quickly.  We had to take an unexpected trip to the mall this evening to fix Sean's Mac again and there were so many people there TOTing.  And the costumes on many were spooky scary.  I know, I know.  That's what most are going for.  But I just didn't like it.  I have a vivid imagination thinking about mall shootings and what not with all those scary folk.



Beautiful flowers from my sweet friend Carly after we lost Allie

Otis

Lily

My Milo




It took maybe close to forever for the leaves to change, but it has finally started!  While the kiddos are napping and Ryan is doing school and Sean is home, I've been sneaking out to take a 20 minute walk in the afternoons and read my devotional book and pray.  It's been really nice.  I had to get in a few pix of our colors around here, too.  We are supposed to be getting a lil snow tonight/tomorrow !







This morning we took the children to IHOP for free "scary" face  pancakes.  We ended our evening with free Krispy Kreme donuts.

And totally off subject, but wanted to share that we have been working on Matthew 5.  Our goal is for the 4 of us to learn Matthew 5, 6, and 7.  So far we've got Matt 5:1-10 down.  We have a ways to go, but we are having fun trying to learn it and it is always a blessing to have God's scriptures in our hearts.  We've also decided, Lord willing, if the 4 of us can memorize all 3 chapters, we are going to go on a Disney Cruise.  Oh and we will bring Hailey and Andrew.  :)  We are hoping to go to new York after Sean graduates next December, too.  :)

OK, signing off.  Time to finish my PSL and my PS Godiva truffle.  Oh and Hallmark Christmas movies started.  :O)

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Our Allie Girl

So sad.  We had to say good bye to our dog.  Sean and I got Allie when she was a puppy out in Colorado during our move from GA to CA.  We had been married for about a week or so.  We had our sweet pup for 10 years!  She is definitely missed around here and lots of things remind us of her.  I miss seeing her sleeping on her bed in the corner of our bedroom. I miss her cleaning the floors after we eat!  I miss hearing her bark and scratch at the door - both of which used to annoy me.  I miss her chasing our car as we would leave.  I miss having her on walks with us.  Just miss her. 

She started having diarrhea about a week ago.  We were preparing to take her to the vet when Thursday morning she couldn't move her back legs.  We called and got a vet appointment for a couple hours later.  As Sean was trying to get her in the car, she did actually get up, walk inside, and go to her bed upstairs.  However, when she got to the vet, they basically said we could do lab work to see if she had liver or renal failure and/or a chest x-ray to check for cancer.  None of which are things we could treat her for financially.  She was sick and really nothing we could do about it.  So, we decided to put her to sleep.  Such a hard decision, but we didn't want her to suffer.  She had just had her 10th birthday on October 9th.  



The very same day, we also found out someone had gotten into our bank account and taken all of our money!  Someone hacked into my Google account and bought $650.00 worth of jewels for some game.  We still don't have access to our bank account and we had to close my Google account for a couple of days.  We are getting refunded the money though.  

Any way, it's been a tough week in some aspects, but absolutely wonderful, too!  

God is good.  In the valleys and on the mountaintops.  Praise His name.  

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Family Meet

We've been going, going, going!  Sean was on Fall Break last week and so Tursday we were at 3 Rivers for their member discount day, Friday the pumpkin patch, Saturday off to meet my mom and aunt, but I will get back to that, Sunday, church, birthday party at the bounce house, church, and yesterday Hunter's postop appointment and I had to work.  I am looking forward to the next few days of being at home and not having anything on the schedule!  Hunter's appointment went well!  he's all healed.  Him and Andrew will go for rechecks in February.  These pictures are from our lunch with my mom and Aunt Holli.  We met them about two hours from here in Smithville, TN.  My mom was in Nashville visiting my aunt.  When we first pulled up to the restaurant, it looked like a real hole in the wall kinda joint, but the food ending up being quite tasty and I would go back again if we were in the area. It was good to see our family, too!
The restaurant had a great view.  Center Point Restaurant

No time for cameras!