Sean, Ryan, Allie and I went to dad's house all day yesterday. I took care of the baby, got us lunch from Fritzie-Freeze and did thank you cards (still not done!). Sean and Dad laid tile and hardwood floors in the den. His house is almost done and is looking amazing! Allie was her normal getting into trouble self. She stepped in drying cement! Our old neighbor came by to chat and see Ryan. The Healthy Families lady came over and we had a good meeting with her. We put together family goals - to get Sean into school, me to get back into shape and get Ryan sleeping in his bassinet and me into nursing school. I have started walking again and once I get the OK from my OB at my 6 week checkup, I want to start running again, yoga, swimming, lifting weights, pilates, spinning, I just wanna workout and get rid of this flab and get my muscles back. My weight is not bad, still 121, was 114 pre-prego, I just had muscle wasting from all the bed rest and from being pregnant with the flabby belly now.
I have felt awful about having Ryan in our bed at night, but after a long talk with Dr. Supow, I am feeling better about it. I am keeping him safe. I have pillows all around him as a barrier and I sleep sitting up (great for my neck) and there aren't covers all over him, so I need to not try to follow all the rules that I read about in a gazillion books and do what is right for our family and follow my mommy instinct. Yes, I do want him to sleep in his bassinet and not cry after five minutes of putting him in there, but hopefully it will come in time. He sleeps a good 3-5 hours at a time with us, so that's nice so we can all get some sleep.
He gets a little fussier now and I know crying is normal and healthy, but it stinks not being able to always soothe him. Like this morning, he was fussy and I started to sing to him to calm him down and he made the worst boo boo face and started screaming. Wow, my singing is THAT bad! ha! No seriously, it broke my heart that I couldn't make him feel better, but I have to know it is normal at times.
He is 4 weeks and 1 day old!!!!