Monday, April 21, 2008

Uncontrolled Emotions Under Control

We had a really good church yesterday. I so look forward to it every weekend. I love all the people there and it really just feels like one big family.

We also went and looked at the house again yesterday. We got some more questions answered and looked around a bit more. We are really excited. We just got off the phone with our agent and she is now putting a yes in on the counteroffer.

Then we went for our couples massage. I wish we could go weekly. It feels so good. Sean did not enjoy his as much because the therapist was new or something, but I really liked mine. She was telling me that in the first and last trimesters of pregnancy that they are allowed to give massages. I don't understand that at all. Hmm, I guess I should asked her why that was so.

Finally, we ate at my grandparents house with my dad and uncle. She made my all time very favorite chicken and broccoli. Yum yum.

The day is gorgeous and we got to go for a nice long walk this morning with Al. I had been looking for a photo of the dog with the cat on its back and 2 mice on the cat's back for this store owner in downtown Dunedin. We had struck up a conversation with her last week and for some reason it came up and she made us promise we would bring her a pic of it. Any way, that is what we were gonna do, but she wasn't open yet. Long story long, going through this album looking for the pic, I thumbed through some very sad pictures. Some of Sean and I when we 1st met, our trip to AZ right before he left for deployment, 4th of July and his BD around that time too and the day of and following day that he left. I had a good cry and almost a panic attack, but for the first time I was able to control it. I am proud of myself. I have come to be okay with the fact that we will get sad b/c of all of that we experienced together, but if we can keep it under control and not panic, get anxiety and depressed over it, then we have come leaps and bounds from where we were before and that is definitely a good place to be for me for right now.

3 comments:

megan said...

I hope you get the house!
And I'm proud of you for being able to go through old pictures and memories and have the bittersweet feelings but still know that those times are past. Just think of all the happy memories you're making now! I'm so jealous of all the time you and Sean get to spend together.

sbrewner said...

I appreciate all of our time, and we'll get lots more with our plans for the future. And church is always wonderful.

Hettie Brewner said...

I hope we get the house too. We are going in to see the Realtor today to sign the contract and pay for the home inspection.

Yes, I am proud of me too. I was looking at the pics from Sean's BD that the 4 of us went to at that restaurant in downtown San Clemente. I miss you guys so much! That makes me really sad! Boo hoo!

I need to always remind myself how blessed Sean and I are to spend our time together. Sometimes I forget to count my blessings and take it for granted. Every thing we decide is based on whether we can do it together or if we have to go it alone.